Why I’m Starting Over

I started writing a blog almost seven years ago. Over the past year, my attention to it dwindled considerably and with our move over the summer I had to stop altogether. The desire to write was still there but trying to find the time and the footing proved difficult.

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I like to write with pen and paper. There’s just something about the sound and feel of the scratch of the pen as it scrawls across the paper. I can fill out half a page or notebook quickly and then something stops me…writer’s block, lack of inspiration, missing muse, call it whatever you’d like but it can fly out of my mind in an instance and no matter how hard I try I can’t always reign it back. I can stew over an unfinished page for days or even weeks at a time and attempt to force it out of my brain and on to the paper but the pen never moves the same way it does when I’m inspired. Sometimes the only way to find my groove again is to start an entirely new one. There’s just something about a fresh page or notebook that inspires me.

The same issues plagued me with my blog. I stared at it for weeks, to try and find a little wiggle room to squeeze in some words to no avail. I thought about simply ending my tenure as a blogger but that didn’t sit right. The idea that I should start fresh seemed terrifying. I had put so much time and energy into it, accomplished a lot with it, how could I just throw it all away? I debated about it for months before finally deciding to take the plunge. A new blog didn’t erase, literally and figuratively,Β all the effort I had put forth.Β I also have hesitated on a starting a new blog because I worry about running into the same issue I had with my previous blog: the writer’s block, the feeling of a being lost, being backed into a corner, feeling like I’m squeezing stories into random spaces simply out of obligation. But my other choice to sit and do nothing seems like a defeat.

So here I am, starting over, ready to focus on the here and now, set aside my concerns, quiet the voices of doubt and criticism in my head, and just do something that I wholly enjoy.

 

30 Comment

  1. πŸ™‚ I’m a big fan of adjustments and starting over. In the long run, it’s so much better to have realized you needed to go in a new direction then keep plugging away at something that isn’t quite the right fit!

    1. Jennifer says: Reply

      It’s reassuring to hear that I’m not the only one who feels that way because I had a little freak out this morning when I woke up like “What did I DO?!!!” Then I had my morning tea and calmed down. πŸ™‚

  2. I think it was really brave of you to start fresh! It will give you a new outlook on all your experiences, especially after a move – and maybe that’s the blog makeover that will jump start your creativity going forward. Big changes like this are great ways to beat writer’s block πŸ˜‰

    1. Jennifer says: Reply

      Thanks for the kind words!

      I think moving and taking on this new adventure with our family was the final push to say “do it and do it right”.

  3. I’m not a fan of starting over, unless I really blew something up completely. Because in the past I quit so many things. I was delusional, thinking it would be easier, if I did something else.
    Nothing is easy. All the good thing is hard.
    Today I would rather fix it, tweak it unless it takes more time, money and efforts than starting over.

    I don’t know about the groove, but if that means like wanting to throw a towel, I understand the feeling.

    1. Jennifer says: Reply

      It definitely would have taken a lot more time, something that is a commodity right now with two young kids, than just learning from my mistake, what did and didn’t work for me and then starting fresh. I thought a lot about what it would mean for me to start over…was I quitting or was I just giving myself some more space?

      You’re definitely right, nothing is ever 100% easy but it shouldn’t be an uphill battle 99.9% of the time either.

      Thanks for stopping by!

  4. I am a fan of adjustments. Life is all about rolling with the punches. A fresh start is always great. Good Luck to you. I know you will do great and enjoy your love of writing all over again.

    1. Jennifer says: Reply

      Thank you for the kind words!

  5. Wow, you are braver than I am. Sometimes starting over is the right step, good luck with everything!

    1. Jennifer says: Reply

      Thanks for the well wishes!

  6. Starting over can be a good thing! I always love buying a new notebook and starting fresh, there’s no better feeling for me.

    Looking forward to seeing future posts x

    1. Jennifer says: Reply

      Nothing better than new stationary! πŸ™‚

  7. Congratulations for taking the leap!

    1. Jennifer says: Reply

      Thank you!

  8. I think it is hard to be in the blogging “business” and not redirect at times. Ultimately, you have to enjoy it above all else. For me, the opposite is true. I have soooo many ideas to blog about but my time is limited and I cannot get to many of them. I love writing with pen and paper too, so there will be numerous scraps of ideas collecting around my computer that often get tossed because the moment has passed. Life gets in the way and there are times when I do not post for a while but I have to remind myself that I am in it for the long haul and that it is OK for life to happen. Life’s moments are what I like to blog about so I can let myself off the hook. Enjoy your new process on an old hobby – it’s fresh and maybe just the thing that you needed!

    1. Jennifer says: Reply

      I definitely wasn’t enjoying it over the last six months-year. Taking the time off really helped give me some breathing room and reaffirm that I do like doing it just not the way I was doing at the time. Life getting in the way was definitely a blessing in disguise. Thanks for stopping by!

  9. Nicole says: Reply

    I’m a new blogger here so i am starting out too in a way. I can relate to a few of the road blocks you were describing. I find that a lot of my own have to do with my perfectionism. I think throwing out old might free you up much like doing a spring clean of your wardrobe πŸ˜‰

    1. Jennifer says: Reply

      Perfectionism is a huge issue I deal with almost everyday. I have to remember perfect does exist for anyone…even the best writers have their moments of so-so work.

  10. Wow, I totally get this. I haven’t been blogging for nearly as long as you, but lately I’ve been feeling super uninspired to write anything (which has been coupled with stress about other work I have to do) and I feel like I’ve been letting my blog slack a little. Loved reading this! x

    1. Jennifer says: Reply

      I hate how the stress from one area of my life bleeds over into everything else. I hope you can kick that stress away soon and get back your inspiration.

  11. Megan says: Reply

    I’m not a new blogger, but I’m a tired blogger. And when I feel the urge to shut it all done and break from the internet, I know a break is needed…which I where I’m at right now. Fighting the urge to shut it all down and hoping to find the balance and passion again! Thanks for sharing your struggle too!

    1. Jennifer says: Reply

      I hope you take the time you need and find a balance that makes you happy again!

  12. Kara says: Reply

    We all need to start fresh sometimes! I re-branded over the summer and it felt so good! I hope you feel the same way in your new direction!

    1. Jennifer says: Reply

      Thank you! I hope the excitement about the fresh start carries over for a while.

  13. Good luck! I look forward to reading your posts. πŸ™‚

    1. Jennifer says: Reply

      Thanks for stopping by!

  14. I’m a big believer in the fact that sometimes everyone needs to start over; it can be therapuetic to “wipe the slate clean”, so to speak. πŸ™‚

    1. Jennifer says: Reply

      Agreed. πŸ™‚ Thanks for stopping by!

  15. I’m feeling the same way about my book blog. After 8 yrs, I need another outlet for my non-travel related writing. Time to move on. More power to you!

    1. Jennifer says: Reply

      Thanks for the well wishes! Best of luck to you, too!

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