I started writing a blog almost seven years ago. Over the past year, my attention to it dwindled considerably and with our move over the summer I had to stop altogether. The desire to write was still there but trying to find the time and the footing proved difficult.
I like to write with pen and paper. There’s just something about the sound and feel of the scratch of the pen as it scrawls across the paper. I can fill out half a page or notebook quickly and then something stops me…writer’s block, lack of inspiration, missing muse, call it whatever you’d like but it can fly out of my mind in an instance and no matter how hard I try I can’t always reign it back. I can stew over an unfinished page for days or even weeks at a time and attempt to force it out of my brain and on to the paper but the pen never moves the same way it does when I’m inspired. Sometimes the only way to find my groove again is to start an entirely new one. There’s just something about a fresh page or notebook that inspires me.
The same issues plagued me with my blog. I stared at it for weeks, to try and find a little wiggle room to squeeze in some words to no avail. I thought about simply ending my tenure as a blogger but that didn’t sit right. The idea that I should start fresh seemed terrifying. I had put so much time and energy into it, accomplished a lot with it, how could I just throw it all away? I debated about it for months before finally deciding to take the plunge. A new blog didn’t erase, literally and figuratively, all the effort I had put forth. I also have hesitated on a starting a new blog because I worry about running into the same issue I had with my previous blog: the writer’s block, the feeling of a being lost, being backed into a corner, feeling like I’m squeezing stories into random spaces simply out of obligation. But my other choice to sit and do nothing seems like a defeat.
So here I am, starting over, ready to focus on the here and now, set aside my concerns, quiet the voices of doubt and criticism in my head, and just do something that I wholly enjoy.